A Staggering Work of Heartbroken Genius

by Friends of Steve

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All vocals, instruments, recording, mixing, mastering, photos, graphic design by Stephen K. Donnelly.

All words and music copyright 2009 Stephen K. Donnelly, SOCAN/ASCAP

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released October 18, 2009

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Track Name: Chicken Soup
Chicken Soup
Copyright 2009 Stephen K. Donnelly, SOCAN/ASCAP

i wish i could be with you
your sweater and your blankets
wrap you up and warm you up
be the mint tea in your mug

time and space will not allow
me to just show up
so this line is the broth
and this one is the noodle in your cup

let this be your chicken soup
warm and welcome in your time of need
let this be your chicken soup
i hope it brings comfort to you

this line is the rosemary
and this line is the sage
this line is the magazine
i bought for you on the way

this line is the vaporub
this line is the warm bath
this line is the falling asleep
warm and happy underneath your sheets

let this be your chicken soup
so simple and true
let this be your chicken soup
i hope it brings comfort to you
Track Name: Scattered
E A E
Scatter my ashes off the coast of California
E A B
Take a rental car down highway one
A B
Find a rocky cove
E A
Where the surfers rove (pause 1 bar)
A B E
Leave me floating there in the California sun

Scatter my ashes off the white cliffs of Dover
Through Cambridge, Portsmouth and Norwich to the sea
Take a double-decker coach
From London to the coast
Leave me floating on a breeze of irrationality

CHORUS
A
'Cause I'm scattered (scattered, scattered)
E
Already scattered
A
'Cause I'm scattered (scattered, scattered)

Abm A
Already scattered from day to day
E A
May as well end up that way
A B
I'll be flattered if you leave me scattered...

Scatter my ashes in Holyhead at 2:15
Near the ferry port, or in Dublin, or in between
Though Belfast would be nice
It fades to grey at night
So in North Wales scatter me into the ferry gasoline.

CHORUS

SOLO

CHORUS
Track Name: Beat The Odds
I just want to hold you
I get so cold when I’m near you
When I try to reach you
I get an elbow from you

I don’t know why I’m here
Or if I can last another year / But I’ll stay another year
And though I cry, I might break down and try
To hope that we can beat the odds

This uncertainty
Is what's killing me
Why can't you just leave
And leave me be

Chorus

Now I don't want to see you
My worlds are colliding
Don't want you to care
My sanity is sliding
The thought of you is a weight
(Into the depths of despair)
That I can't bear
(Where it all seems unfair)

Chorus
Track Name: Unspent
C F
The child inside me is dying
C F
I didn’t even hear him crying
Am G F
He says he’s all right but he’s not
Am G F
I should have checked but I forgot

The child inside me is leaving
He didn’t give me a reason
I tried to catch him before he went
He said my love is going

Unspent

The kid inside me is hurting
For lack of better wording
Not bleeding, not become
The things I could have undone

I woke up from a long walk
And he said we had to talk
He said he’d give both his eyes
Not to cry and lie

Unspent

Unfettered, unspent, unwound
Uncouth, unlost, unfound
Unravelled, undone, unkempt
Unspoken, untold, unwept

Unspent
Track Name: Pill
D D/E D/F# G
Want a love that’s so strong
It burns me up
Want a love that holds on
And fills my cup

I’m tired of running
While the world stands still
Tired of thinking
I’m too ill and I can’t find a pill

Want a love that’s so hot
It inspired me
A love so devious illogical
That is defies me

I’m tired of looking
For another phrase
To describe this feeling
So I slip into some more clichés

I just want a pill for what ails me
I muster all my intellect but it fails me
I just want a cure for a cup that was built to spill
I’m exhausted
Where’s my panacea, where’s my pill?
Track Name: Breaking My Own Heart
Waited for your call
But it never came
I’m wondering where you are
And why I’m so lame

Never see the obvious
Until it’s gone
Breaking my own heart
Lost and alone

CHORUS
I keep breaking my own heart
With my clueless ways
Forgetting what I’ve got
And why I should stay

All your friends will tell you
That I had my chance
That I don’t deserve you
You should quit this dance

I should have shared my hopes and fears
Not tucked them away
Hoarded like insurance
For a rainy day

Should have let you into my head
And let you help
Sweep away the cobwebs
Of my doubt

I keep breaking my own heart
With my clueless ways
Building walls around it
Instead of giving it away



Keep breaking my own heart
With my apathetic chisel
My casual dismissal
Now I’ve driven you away

Keep breaking my own heart
Slowly tearing it apart
‘Til it’s whittled to the bone
And I find myself alone

As I looked you in the eye
From my vantage point on stage
All my disillusion
Melted away

One look in your eyes
The smile on your face
The beauty of your person
Brought back the better days

But now you’re well beyond that
I dropped the ball again
By the time I tried to pick it up
Things could never be the same

By the time I came around
I had lost too much ground
Backpedalled while you stood firm
And said that I’ll never learn

If I wore you out
That was never my intention
Now I’m shivering in sadness
At my lack of conviction

I’m quivering with madness
Still waiting for your call
Four hours later
I’ll head back alone
To my empty home